quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
I'm doing a tarot reading but I'm keeping it on my regular blog, [personal profile] enchanted_manit  because it's kinda intense and it feels more right to post it there.
quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
It's been an extra rough week on top of a rough life lol. I just wanted to get some insight into my life in general, with all four aspects looked at.

1. Physical situation-Queen of Swords
This card is about resilience. I like the shark imagery on the card, too. It's a powerful card, and to me it almost says that right now, physically, I'm pretty good. I'm pretty resilient to the stresses that are getting to me in other aspects of my life.

2. Emotional situation-King of Wands
This is a card of practicality, and encourages exploring passions. And I do think I've been doing that a little. I've been enjoying my bullet journal and I've been trying to write. But I've definitely struggled sometimes, as in my executive dysfunction makes me procrastinate and procrastinate.

3. Mental situation-Two of Pentacles
This card represents options, and specifically that there are choices on the horizons. That's been the main source of my stress: what my living situation will be like and what my schooling will look like. With my aunts potential health issues, I 
may end up being a full time caregiver and I'll have to delay my schooling. There's so many variables and this is a huge source of stress.

4. Spiritual situation-The Star
This card represents hope and following your heart. I do feel like I'm on the right path with my spiritual stuff, and that I'm going to reach that star, or goal, I have.

5. Physical self care-The Wheel
This is a card of luck and destiny and going with the flow. To me, this is saying that my self care for my physical self is in a good place. I'm working on eating food I make myself, and adding more variety, and that's good for right now. I can focus on other aspects.

6. Emotional self care-Three of Cups
This card can indicate a reunion. This is a friendship card and indicates spending time with people who make you happy and who you love. Let other's help you.

7. Mental self care-Eight of Wands
This card's keyword is travel and BOY OH BOY I WOULD LOVE TO TRAVEL. I would love to get away, for three or four days and just mentally recharge. Over the last few weeks I've looked at placed like Great Wolf Lodge and other hotels and destinations to just go to and unwind. If I had the money I'd be on vacation. I'd be doing something. Just me and my headmates. Peaceful. Not to mention day trips like to Playdium even though summer is the WRONG time to go.

8. Spiritual self care-The Angel of the Ocean (Temperance)
Healing. I need to spend some time healing and doing more spiritual healing either on myself or with someone else. This card also indicates being patient. My spiritual path isn't a sprint, it's a marathon.

New Deck!

Jul. 10th, 2017 06:31 pm
quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
I got two new tarot decks and I'm testing out the Oceanic Tarot. It's SO PRETTY

And it looks like it'll be straightforward. The cards are almost laid out like an oracle deck with keywords on the cards themselves.

I wanted some insight on what's going on with me and my xeno stuff. Like, I've always been into some aliens. Spock, Maul, and I went through a huge phase before Hex made me schedule my shit, where I was involved with a ton of different aliens from various Star Trek cultures including Klingon, Romulan, Vorta, Andorian,Ferengi, who knows...
It calmed down, but once I invited Dukat back, it's gotten more intense. I'm sure part of it is fangirling with my lizard fucker friends I met on Tumblr, but I doubt it's all them, because I'm also feeling things for Yondu.

So I found a spread called "What Just happened" so I'm going to do that.

1. What's happened?-Nine of Swords-Anxiety
Well, the last 24 hours have been super stressful because my my aunt is having some of the same issues that my mom had before she was diagnosed with bladder cancer. So it's been rough. On top of that, there's the regular panic I've been having in general with life. So I'm pretty much just always anxious.

2. What am I feeling?-Ace of Wands-Growth
The book specifies this can indicate spiritual growth, which is where I'm moving in my life. I'm trying to grow spiritually. But I'm surprised at this because I'm not actually feeling a lot of growth and currently I'm feeling more stagnant. Though, I am feeling like I'm growing in general. I'm cooking for myself, as best I can.
The card also mentioned pregnancy, which reminds me of the dream I had, and the seahorse, funnily enough, reminds me of a fanart I saw for Mermay with seahorse Yondu (his species are marsupials so of course pregnant seahorse fanart happened)

3. What do I need that I'm not receiving? -Eight of Swords-Restriction
I need to restrict myself? Well, this is probably true. I spend a lot of money all the time. Though the book says I'm being restricted, which also makes sense. Mentally I'm restricted for how much I can do, spoon wise. I can't make three meals a day for myself sometimes, so that leads to me having multiple cheese sandwiches as a meal. So I need energy and spoons. This is not surprising.

4. What am I asking for?-The Sun-Happiness
Jesus, hit the nail on the head why don't you? I honestly don't remember the last time I was truly happy, but I have been having fun with Dukat. So I guess I think that the xeno stuff will make me happy. That may or may not be true, but that's what I'm feeling.

I asked what would happen if I indulged and just went full alien orgy and the card I pulled was the Page of Pentacles, which represents opportunity.
To me it says It could go either way. If an opportunity presents itself, such as someone contacting me, or something, I can go for it and it could be okay.

quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
I am, once again, having problems with crushes. So I'm doing the same reading I did for Kaecilius, but this time for Yondu. Fitting that it's another Marvel problem.

1. The situation-Feather of Skulls (Knave of Wands)
Shaman of Fire. Abundance, ample resources, capacity for recovery, transformation. Fire is an action suit, which is interesting because I've been not acting.

2. Action-Horse of Crystals (Knight of Cups)
Ally of the Water. "A capacity to dream that can liberate the spirit or lose it amidst useless reveries. Importance of an oneiric life."
I don't know what this means.

3. Why am I struggling?-The Ancestral Shaman (The Magician)
The desire to modify reality with the strength of one's imagination. Initiation. Practical and dialectal skills. Great potential that has not yet been expressed

4. Outcome-The Upper World (The World)
Everything that is happening must happen. Full realization. Agreement. Renewal. Completeness. Desire for a new beginning.

I don't know what's happening here.
quetzalzotz: (Cthulu)
I had a dream last night that feels important, that I need to analyze.

Dream:
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It's my first dream in a long time that feels like a narrative, and I woke up feeling urged to write about it.
I'm doing two forms of interpretation. One is using my dream dictionary, and one will build on that with a tarot reading. Since I'm not super comfortable analyzing dreams yet.

Symbols:
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And onto the tarot reading, I'm using my Revelations tarot deck for this one. Spread from here.
Read more... )

I usually don't read reversals, even for this deck where the imagery actually represents something reversed and the card isn't just upside down, but I felt like I should. I find it interesting everything is reversed, because I do feel topsy turvy.
quetzalzotz: (Ma'at)
Tommen got really into Pinterest and bullet journaling. He wants to make one to help him manage his partners, make meal plans, and cleaning tasks, as well as schedule time to teach Hux and Kieran horseback riding, crafting with Myrci, all sorts of things.

Since I don't have much of a work/life balance, because I don't work, I never got into bullet journaling. But Fireez is doing a creative one, so I thought I'd give that a try, too. For creative projects, for chores, self care, and for my pagan stuff!

I'm hopefully going to get it set up within the next few days and have it ready for July 1
quetzalzotz: (Ixchel)
Today is the solstice! In my personal mythology, this is when Quetzalcoatl is at his strongest, and after today, he transfers power back to Cama Zotz.

I don't have anything really planned for today, but I did stop at Chapters, and I got a new oracle deck. It's the Messages from your Animal Spirit Guides deck. I asked Dukat if he'd let me do a animal totem pull for him.

Pueo (Hawaiian Owl)

Omg they're adorable.

"Your ancestral spirit guides are offering you guidance now, so pay close attention to signs and omens from them."
I don't know much about Cardassian spiritual beliefs, but I do know family is hugely important to them. And Dukat has lost pretty much all of his family.

quetzalzotz: (Cthulu)
I think I'm getting more and more attached to reptiles, to the point I'm going to add some into my animal section of my BoS.

I also got some new books. Four are about beings and faeries and elementals, one is a sequel to a great crystal book, and another is about the akashic records, which is something I've been interested in, but never really looked into before.

I'm taking today to read those. I  had an emotional day yesterday so I'm doing this for now.

Tomorrow is the solstice, and I'll write about that tomorrow, lol.
quetzalzotz: (Quetzalcoatl)
Everyone talks about Mercury in Retrograde, probably because it has a tendency to fuck shit up. But other planets go in and out of retrograde too.

I didn't know that.

I bought the 2017 Witches Almanac, to go with my more generic (and Christian) Farmers Almanac. And it had all the retrogrades listed.

This retrograde lasts until November 22, and this retrograde affects the water signs a lot, most notably Pisces, and affects water animals, chemicals, and spiritual and psychic phenomena. 

This could be a particularly interesting time for me, as I am extremely drawn to water, and am pretty in tune to the spiritual and psychic worlds. Or at least I'm trying.

I'm not doing anything other than groceries and maybe a brow wax tomorrow, so I have time to chill out and make a big push. I've done some piddly things, like my wishlists. But nothing major yet. If I get some good work done, I'm going to get some books on spirits and beings.

We're in a couple other retrogrades too. Jupiter is retrograde and it affects large animals, education, and religion. Saturn is effecting the elderly, employment and natural resources. Pluto is affecting ecoloy, espionage, birth and death rares, and strongly affects Scorpios.
quetzalzotz: (Crystals)
So I don't even know how I got to the farmer's almanac site, but there I was and I found out it had some really cool and useful stuff for my practice.

It's very obvious I'm not the target market for these guys, but I'm looking forward to going through it and printing out relevant stuff, like moon charts, astrological "best days" and the like. It's even customized for my area code.

I definitely think I'll get a copy every year. I'm a little disappointed I can't "subscribe" for the digital copies and get it each year without needing to remember, but the digital is cheaper, and no shipping. You can with the physical, I believe.

It's okay though, I can probably put reminders somewhere, lol.

I took a friend to an appointment today and we did some shopping after. First was at this amazing hippy store called Grasshopper. It's got a lot of neat things. I got a Karimba finger piano, and a tie-dyed headband. We also picked up some tie dyed onesies for the twins and Shara. They had cute baby mukluks too, but it's too hot, obviously, and knowing mine and Kylo's genes, the girls will have GIANT feet so who knows what size they'd need for winter.

We also went to the crystal store. And they had some stuff hidden behind an 18+ curtain. So, being 18+, we looked.

Crystal dicks. SO MANY DICKS.

I got a small smokey quartz one in honor of my grey trash lord. (There is a relevant story about why this is extra funny, and I'll get it up on my regular blog)

Reading

Jun. 8th, 2017 04:59 pm
quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
My future sister-in-law is coming over in half an hour or so to get a tarot reading done and have some snacks, chill, chat. My apartment is still mostly a nightmare, but I have tried. I feel insecure about it but oh well. I really did try.

I have a bunch of snacks, from some cheese and meats, fruit kebabs, and candy and chips and chocolate.

I'm not sure what kind of reading she's interested in, if it's something more general or more specfic. I'm not sure if we'll do any other readings but I have my runes and pendulums ready as well.

I'm sort of hoping she'll want a full "work up" as it were. Birth charts, animal totems, chakra reading, crystals. It would be nice to have someone actually in real life who is interested in this stuff.

We'll start with the reading for now and see how it goes. I need to put out the meat and cheese soon.
quetzalzotz: (Demeter)
So I cleaned my bathroom two days ahead of schedule, so I think I'm gonna reward myself with some of the being books I've looked at and put on my wishlist.

This is how adulthood works, right?

Beings

Jun. 5th, 2017 12:38 pm
quetzalzotz: (Crystals)
I think I want to do more work with beings. Faeries, angels, creatures, what-have-you. I did work with faeries briefly, but then that got sidetracked...

See, I'm terrified of grey-type aliens. Other aliens? Like, I don't know, Spock, or Darth Maul, or Gul Dukat, I am 1000000% into and extremely attracted to them. But greys, greys scare the bejesus out of me. Even those weird Vagina Mouth greys from Enterprise scare me.

When I was still talking to Hex, she claimed the greys were a type of faerie. And sure, I actually did like some of her arguments and evidence in that case (one of the few things I didn't mind in her cult) but it turned me away from being magic at all.

BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED

SO OF COURSE I DIDN'T DO ANY OF THAT

But I had an awesome experience with angels at the psychic fair, and a lot of books on beings caught my eye while making my Wishlist section of my BoS, so I'm thinking I'll get a couple books and do some reading.

quetzalzotz: (Default)
I'm at that point in my Book work where I'm panicking because I don't know how to keep everything consistent.  I want it to somehow look professional, and I don't really know why. This isn't a professional book. This is my book, and it's okay if it's not consistent. As long as I understand it and know what I'm talking about, and I do my best to make it neat, it's fine.

Ugh, make my weirdness about this stoppp.

I think I'm going to ease my way into it, somehow. I'll figure it out.

My Alphabet section was easy. I found a great chart I printed out with 17 different lettering systems, lining up with the alphabet we know. It includes Tengwar and Tolkien dwavish runes. If only it had Klingon!

Binder

Jun. 3rd, 2017 12:15 pm
quetzalzotz: (Skulls)
I've already got some stuff accomplished for my binder. I have 31 tabs, and 26 sections, so I have room for five more sections, should I need them.

My sections are as follows:
Part 1 (first five sections): "About"
1. About me/the practice
2. Soulbond stuff (their crystals, birth charts, etc)
3. Deities and spirits, may include mythology
4. Alphabets, fictional and magical
5. Wish list because I am someone who looooves the accessories of paganism lol

Part two (the next 9): "Practice"
6. Divination-runes, tarot, pendulum, etc
7. Dreams, including dream journaling
8. Healing and Shaman work
9. Holidays
10. Moon Magic-moon zodiac signs, moon meanings, eclipses, etc
11. Spells, curses, magical recipies
12. Rituals
13. Writings, personal or found
14. Yoga

Part three (the last 12): "Correspondences"
15. Animals
16. Astrology (sun signs)
17. Chakras
18. Colours
19. Crystals
20. Days and Times
21. Elements
22. Incense
23. Numerology
24. Oils
25. Planets
26. Plants

While I mentioned on my main blog that I'm sick, I'm going to do some work on this while I decide if I'll go see my family later (and subsequently wash my hair, do my makeup, etc). I'm hoping to get the alphabets section done. I plan on doing this while watching DS9 which is perfect and no one can tell me otherwise.

My only annoyance is that my clear sheet protectors, for things like my aura photo or my moon phase card, are longer than the tabs, so they hide tabs and I can't see them. There isn't much I can do, because I don't want to punch holes in these, and some of them I can't, but augh, it's so annoying.

BoS Update

Jun. 2nd, 2017 06:52 pm
quetzalzotz: (Doors)
I've been trying the index card thing and I just can't get it to work out. I can envision something but it's not playing out right. So I'm switching to a binder. I had an old one I emptied out, but I did get a set of divider tabs. They're numbered, 1-31.

I currently am having sinus problems (feels like a cold, but only the specific sinus meds have helped so I'm suspecting a sinus infection) so I figured it would be a good day to organize the tabs, make my list of sections. I wouldn't stress about it except for the fact they only give you one index sheet and the Word Document template isn't a copy of it.

I suppose I could scan it in and have a blank copy I could print out.

It's slow going. I feel awful and I mostly want to lay down and veg out while watching DS9 (which is giving me SO MANY feels).

I'm still doing the "selfish" route, by limiting things to what I actually have. Especially for big categories like crystals. Some will be "normal" like moon phase correspondences, or elements.

I'm currently trying to brainstorm ideas for what to include.

Epiphany

May. 28th, 2017 07:18 pm
quetzalzotz: (Thoth)
So it's been a punky kind of day. I woke up and dealt with a really bad trigger and it's been one of those days.

Dinner didn't sit well but while I was praying for death, I had a thought about my whole spiritual project.

What I've always done is try to get everything into my book, or in this case, Index Card Box. I was terrified of it not being perfect.

But my epiphany is basically fuck that. I have my books. I have kindle apps on all my devices. Why have notes for things I do not yet own? I CAN MAKE NEW CARDS IF I ACQUIRE THESE THINGS.

I feel like I was more coherent explaining it to myself, but at least I know what I'm doing. Kind of.

Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow and I'll actually do some cataloguing of what I have downstairs. Maybe make an altar.
quetzalzotz: (Quetzalcoatl)
I have a book called Discover Your Psychic Type and it's not bad. It basically postulates that there are four types of psychic types: physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual.

The book didn't have a ton of useful stuff for my BoS, but I did do the quiz.

C-55-Mental intuitive
A-45-Physical intuitive
D-39-Spiritual intuitive
B-33-Emotional intuitive

I'm surprised at my lower score for emotional intuitive, and my relatively high physical intuitive.

Mental makes sense. I want answers, lol.
quetzalzotz: (Crystals)
First time in a while I picked crystals for myself and wow. I got lucky. Four palm sized pieces, and I spent $35.

A "broken" piece of clear quartz. Frankly, I think this is beautiful. The break is really smooth and clean, and there's some fantastic inclusions and it's crackled up really nice. For $4!

Another $4 find. This is an orthocera. There are some chips along the side. Can you spot them? I couldn't at first either, and the picture hides them pretty much completely. This is a fossilized cephlapod, and according to jewelexi, this stone is really fitting for where I am right now:
As related to root chakra fossils holds the energy of the Earth, it reminds people that a light of day is waiting for you after darkness. It is assumed that fossils motivates the individual and help them to reborn when they chose to change and come back from depression. Orthoceras fossils reinforce earth energies as well as support it helps to balance emotions, increase confidence, stimulates the mind and leads to openness and innovation. It feels grounding and help to gather knowledge in addition it also empowers accomplishments.
Orthoceras fossils an excellent healing stone spiritually heals the past life setbacks of an individual by helping him to access it and in overcoming fears engendered in the past. Fossils are believed to infuse confidence in the wearer and assists in business success. Orthoceras lifts the depressed people out and makes them emotionally stable. (Source)
This feels like a good stone for where I am.

 Peacock ore. This piece was only $10 and it was at least three times the size of my old piece. They had bigger pieces to, but I liked the amount of colour on this piece. This is a stone of healing and energy work (Source) and that's perfect for me getting back into this kind of work.

 Crazy lace agate. only $15. I'm surprised I liked this one, because I usually don't like raw stones. Crazy lace agate is also called happy lace, and it's a stabilizing stone, and promotes liveliness and security (Source). I feel like this is a good charging stone. I can put jewellery here or other stones.
quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
I don't know what I should do about a situation with a former friend. A part of me wants to contact her after I found a post of hers, mostly for closure and truly airing my grievances, which I didn't do. But it does have the potential to open a can of worms.

So, Tarot.

1.When you need to know about where you are right now-Queen of Pentacles-Earth
This card can represent changes and actually mentions birth and midwifery, bringing something new into life. I feel like I'm at that point, I'm the thing being born, the thing growing and blossoming.

2. Benefits of speaking to her-Death-Matter and Antimatter
"When matter and antimatter meet, they annihilate each other. But this destruction is not wanton of wasteful  because out of the process new particles are born.'
This has the potential to be explosive. It could have ripple affects through everything. Even so, it seems like ultimately it would be beneficial. New things come from this.

3. Downsides of speaking to her-Nine of Swords-Matter/Antimatter Annihilations
Fears with an external trigger. This could set me off in a negative way, or it could represent annihiliations, or ripple affects among other friends.

4. The probable outcome-Page of Cups-Ophiuchus
This card talks about healing and knowledge, and seeing the world with an innocent kind of wonder. Despite the awesome forces of all the inevitable emotions, this could be that rebirth I need.

5. Benefits of not speaking to her-Three of Swords-Red Dwarf
This card talks about feeling small, suppressing and denying pain. This ties in with the fact closure is important to me, I need to defend myself and I didn't do that before. However, n this position, it almost indicates I would be aware of this regardless? 

6. Downsides of not speaking to her-The Fool-The Big Bang
This is the genesis. This is birth. This is the start of a journey. This is newness. If I don't talk to her, I can't get this rebirth that I've been seeing repeated in other cards.

7. The probable outcome-Knight of Pentacles-Centaurus
This represents small steps, plodding along. It's a sharp contract to the violent explosions of annihilations. This is staying where I'm at.

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