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It's been an extra rough week on top of a rough life lol. I just wanted to get some insight into my life in general, with all four aspects looked at.

1. Physical situation-Queen of Swords
This card is about resilience. I like the shark imagery on the card, too. It's a powerful card, and to me it almost says that right now, physically, I'm pretty good. I'm pretty resilient to the stresses that are getting to me in other aspects of my life.

2. Emotional situation-King of Wands
This is a card of practicality, and encourages exploring passions. And I do think I've been doing that a little. I've been enjoying my bullet journal and I've been trying to write. But I've definitely struggled sometimes, as in my executive dysfunction makes me procrastinate and procrastinate.

3. Mental situation-Two of Pentacles
This card represents options, and specifically that there are choices on the horizons. That's been the main source of my stress: what my living situation will be like and what my schooling will look like. With my aunts potential health issues, I 
may end up being a full time caregiver and I'll have to delay my schooling. There's so many variables and this is a huge source of stress.

4. Spiritual situation-The Star
This card represents hope and following your heart. I do feel like I'm on the right path with my spiritual stuff, and that I'm going to reach that star, or goal, I have.

5. Physical self care-The Wheel
This is a card of luck and destiny and going with the flow. To me, this is saying that my self care for my physical self is in a good place. I'm working on eating food I make myself, and adding more variety, and that's good for right now. I can focus on other aspects.

6. Emotional self care-Three of Cups
This card can indicate a reunion. This is a friendship card and indicates spending time with people who make you happy and who you love. Let other's help you.

7. Mental self care-Eight of Wands
This card's keyword is travel and BOY OH BOY I WOULD LOVE TO TRAVEL. I would love to get away, for three or four days and just mentally recharge. Over the last few weeks I've looked at placed like Great Wolf Lodge and other hotels and destinations to just go to and unwind. If I had the money I'd be on vacation. I'd be doing something. Just me and my headmates. Peaceful. Not to mention day trips like to Playdium even though summer is the WRONG time to go.

8. Spiritual self care-The Angel of the Ocean (Temperance)
Healing. I need to spend some time healing and doing more spiritual healing either on myself or with someone else. This card also indicates being patient. My spiritual path isn't a sprint, it's a marathon.

New Deck!

Jul. 10th, 2017 06:31 pm
quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
I got two new tarot decks and I'm testing out the Oceanic Tarot. It's SO PRETTY

And it looks like it'll be straightforward. The cards are almost laid out like an oracle deck with keywords on the cards themselves.

I wanted some insight on what's going on with me and my xeno stuff. Like, I've always been into some aliens. Spock, Maul, and I went through a huge phase before Hex made me schedule my shit, where I was involved with a ton of different aliens from various Star Trek cultures including Klingon, Romulan, Vorta, Andorian,Ferengi, who knows...
It calmed down, but once I invited Dukat back, it's gotten more intense. I'm sure part of it is fangirling with my lizard fucker friends I met on Tumblr, but I doubt it's all them, because I'm also feeling things for Yondu.

So I found a spread called "What Just happened" so I'm going to do that.

1. What's happened?-Nine of Swords-Anxiety
Well, the last 24 hours have been super stressful because my my aunt is having some of the same issues that my mom had before she was diagnosed with bladder cancer. So it's been rough. On top of that, there's the regular panic I've been having in general with life. So I'm pretty much just always anxious.

2. What am I feeling?-Ace of Wands-Growth
The book specifies this can indicate spiritual growth, which is where I'm moving in my life. I'm trying to grow spiritually. But I'm surprised at this because I'm not actually feeling a lot of growth and currently I'm feeling more stagnant. Though, I am feeling like I'm growing in general. I'm cooking for myself, as best I can.
The card also mentioned pregnancy, which reminds me of the dream I had, and the seahorse, funnily enough, reminds me of a fanart I saw for Mermay with seahorse Yondu (his species are marsupials so of course pregnant seahorse fanart happened)

3. What do I need that I'm not receiving? -Eight of Swords-Restriction
I need to restrict myself? Well, this is probably true. I spend a lot of money all the time. Though the book says I'm being restricted, which also makes sense. Mentally I'm restricted for how much I can do, spoon wise. I can't make three meals a day for myself sometimes, so that leads to me having multiple cheese sandwiches as a meal. So I need energy and spoons. This is not surprising.

4. What am I asking for?-The Sun-Happiness
Jesus, hit the nail on the head why don't you? I honestly don't remember the last time I was truly happy, but I have been having fun with Dukat. So I guess I think that the xeno stuff will make me happy. That may or may not be true, but that's what I'm feeling.

I asked what would happen if I indulged and just went full alien orgy and the card I pulled was the Page of Pentacles, which represents opportunity.
To me it says It could go either way. If an opportunity presents itself, such as someone contacting me, or something, I can go for it and it could be okay.


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