quetzalzotz: (Tarot)
I got two new tarot decks and I'm testing out the Oceanic Tarot. It's SO PRETTY

And it looks like it'll be straightforward. The cards are almost laid out like an oracle deck with keywords on the cards themselves.

I wanted some insight on what's going on with me and my xeno stuff. Like, I've always been into some aliens. Spock, Maul, and I went through a huge phase before Hex made me schedule my shit, where I was involved with a ton of different aliens from various Star Trek cultures including Klingon, Romulan, Vorta, Andorian,Ferengi, who knows...
It calmed down, but once I invited Dukat back, it's gotten more intense. I'm sure part of it is fangirling with my lizard fucker friends I met on Tumblr, but I doubt it's all them, because I'm also feeling things for Yondu.

So I found a spread called "What Just happened" so I'm going to do that.

1. What's happened?-Nine of Swords-Anxiety
Well, the last 24 hours have been super stressful because my my aunt is having some of the same issues that my mom had before she was diagnosed with bladder cancer. So it's been rough. On top of that, there's the regular panic I've been having in general with life. So I'm pretty much just always anxious.

2. What am I feeling?-Ace of Wands-Growth
The book specifies this can indicate spiritual growth, which is where I'm moving in my life. I'm trying to grow spiritually. But I'm surprised at this because I'm not actually feeling a lot of growth and currently I'm feeling more stagnant. Though, I am feeling like I'm growing in general. I'm cooking for myself, as best I can.
The card also mentioned pregnancy, which reminds me of the dream I had, and the seahorse, funnily enough, reminds me of a fanart I saw for Mermay with seahorse Yondu (his species are marsupials so of course pregnant seahorse fanart happened)

3. What do I need that I'm not receiving? -Eight of Swords-Restriction
I need to restrict myself? Well, this is probably true. I spend a lot of money all the time. Though the book says I'm being restricted, which also makes sense. Mentally I'm restricted for how much I can do, spoon wise. I can't make three meals a day for myself sometimes, so that leads to me having multiple cheese sandwiches as a meal. So I need energy and spoons. This is not surprising.

4. What am I asking for?-The Sun-Happiness
Jesus, hit the nail on the head why don't you? I honestly don't remember the last time I was truly happy, but I have been having fun with Dukat. So I guess I think that the xeno stuff will make me happy. That may or may not be true, but that's what I'm feeling.

I asked what would happen if I indulged and just went full alien orgy and the card I pulled was the Page of Pentacles, which represents opportunity.
To me it says It could go either way. If an opportunity presents itself, such as someone contacting me, or something, I can go for it and it could be okay.


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