Epiphany

So it's been a punky kind of day. I woke up and dealt with a really bad trigger and it's been one of those days.

Dinner didn't sit well but while I was praying for death, I had a thought about my whole spiritual project.

What I've always done is try to get everything into my book, or in this case, Index Card Box. I was terrified of it not being perfect.

But my epiphany is basically fuck that. I have my books. I have kindle apps on all my devices. Why have notes for things I do not yet own? I CAN MAKE NEW CARDS IF I ACQUIRE THESE THINGS.

I feel like I was more coherent explaining it to myself, but at least I know what I'm doing. Kind of.

Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow and I'll actually do some cataloguing of what I have downstairs. Maybe make an altar.